Choices or Decision?

Isn't this beautiful?~

Do you need others to make decision for you? Do you sometimes feel that you are confused in choosing something?

What are the differences between these two words?

I was dwelling in choosing between either to use my old frame spec or to buy a new one.

With not much budget and so many other things to pay, I still stick strong to what I want.

Today, I made the decision to get a new spec, though I know its difficult for my dad to say yes. From the beginning of involving in renewing lenses back then, I always know before my dad tells me that there's no point to buy a new frame if is it still okay. Most important thing is the lense. "If you're able to see through the lense, no matter how weird or old-fashioned the frame is, who cares?!" Ehm.. I care!!!

I'm sorry daddy... I'm a grown up woman who is still asking money from you and you know how bad I feel everytime I do that. I still remember our conversation one evening outside the house where you told me all about your dreams. How I wish you know what I was thinking at that time. Looking at your face, smiling as you mentioned every details of your upcoming future after the retirement. Hold on dad, wait for me. I know what I will do for both of you and mommy. I will do whatever it takes to repay what have you done and gave me. Thank you so much for being a wonderful daddy and understand "this stubborn daughter" of yours~~

And now, what are the colorful finger-nails of mine up there has something to do with all these? Those beautiful fingers represent all my siblings. :) We're raised and love by the same parents. But does that mean, we have to produce the same color? same personality? same ways of thinking and so on? Maybe all of us could see the choices but do all of us make the same decision? No. Therefore once again I stress here that we've been given many choices in life... to take care of the welfare of the family and the growth of each other members in the family OR decide to neglect your responsibility as sons, daughters, sister or brother to your beloved parents and siblings.

Though today I'm quite happy and excited for the new spec, at the same time I'm very disappointed.

Because of my decision today, one finger shows its' significant color and I tell you... The color is ugly. . .

Moral of the story, you know it urself right~

Munga xxx